"Justice is not blind"

(It just favors the beast over the beauty)


One had better die fighting against injustice than die like a dog or a rat in a trap.
~Ida B. Wells

What would you do to protect you children?

Would you jump in front of a speeding car?

Take a bullet for them?

Give your life in exchange for theirs?

What if you had ex husband and in-laws that you knew were abusing them? What would you do then?

Let’s say you are a mother who found out her children had been abuse and immediately went to the police to make out a report and demand they be arrested, The only thing the police do is tell you to get a restraining order.

So, you go to court to get a restraining order and the first thing they do is drag you and your children through long hours of court ordered psych evaluations.

Finally, at the hearing you get to read the psych evaluation report and find it is all in favor of you and the children. It showed that the children are being abused by the ex family. The court appointed evaluators said that there is proof that the children are in danger and should NOT be around the ex in-laws. They fully supported a temporary restraining order until a full investigation could be made into the allegation of the children.

You would be thrilled! You have done everything the legal way and you had finally won the battle to keep your children safe. All that is left is to stand in front of the judge, let them read the recommendation and walk out with a piece of paper that would at least keep your children away from people that only wanted to hurt them.

Finally you appear in court and your case number is called, you and your ex husband stand up and walk up to the tables before the judge.

The judge was a woman in her mid fifties who had a permanent scowl etched into her features. The clerk hands her the file with the recommendations from the court psych evaluators, but she doesn’t read them, in fact does not even glance down. She was too busy looking back and forth at you and your ex-husband (Who were completely mismatched).

You are a six foot tall, drop dead beautiful blond that looks like a model. You have made every attempt to “look like the typical mother" by playing down your looks. You dress in a very conservative pants suit and keep your make-up minimal and your hair in an understated bun.

Your ex-husband is an average, unexceptional looking guy, dressed in a pair of rust color corduroy pants, a dingy faded polo type shirt, his hair was graying and he weighed at least 300lbs. He beats you hands down by looking like a victim.

Now we enter the mind of the judge; an older woman, plainly not attractive and a nasty glare on her face pointed directly at you.

You could see the wheels turning in her head and know exactly what she was thinking; she was feeling sorry for the poor unattractive ex-husband and hatred toward his ex-wife who was probably cheating on him through the whole marriage and was only trying to make this poor innocent man miserable.

“Case dismissed!” she said with a smirk on her face directed at you.

You stand there in shock and then turn a look at your fiancee who is sitting behind you for moral support; he is in a state of shock. You look at the judge who was no longer paying any attention to either of you. You turn you attention toward the court her clerk and even the bailiff and see that they were just as surprised by the judge’s ruling.

But, you still refuse to give up and spoke up “You’re honor; I respectfully ask that you read the recommendation given by the court appointed psychiatric evaluators that have spoken with my children.” You are practically begging. “It clearly says that they suggest a temporary restraining order….”

She cuts you off before you can finish your sentence. “Are you trying to tell me how to run my court room” she asked with a threatening tine in her voice.

You start to lose it and snap back “No your honor I am not trying tell you how to run your court room, I am telling you to just do your job”

Fury turns the judge’s face red and she practically screams at you “I have made my ruling and get out of my court room before I have you put in contempt and do not even think about accusing anyone of sexual abuse or I will take your children away from you and give them to your ex”

You never would accuse anyone of false sexual abuse; it was not the way you were wired and you knew that

your ex may be a lot of things, but he was not a child molester.

You feel you a hand grabbing you and trying to pull you away, it is your fiancee'. He whispers “It’s not over, keep it together”.

The whole time this was going on your sick ex-husband is smirking and making faces at you like a fucking idiot.

You start gathering your paper work and the bailiff approaches you and hands you some other papers and then leans forward to whisper “Re-file the paper work and keep fighting until you get a judge that will take this seriously”. He gives your hand a quick squeeze and a wink “I will keep your ex-husband here for a moment to give you time to leave”.

You mouth “thank you “and walk out the courtroom with your fiancee holding your hand to keep you from collapsing to your knees.

You make it to the parking garage barely saying a word and fighting back the tears, you could see your fiancee was pissed off at the judge; he has been taking care of the children for the past few years. They were his children now and I knew that he wanted to kill somebody.

As you near the car you finally let out a primal scream; fuck anybody who heard. You rage against the justice system, it never saved you from the abuse you suffered so why would it be any different. It should be called the “injustice system”.

Fuck the judge, you wish you could get a hold of her now so she could tell your daughter and son why she felt that they had to be abused, (then you find out many years later that they were being sexually abused ..... by their own paternal grandmother!) What would the judge have to say to your children, sorry?

The Judge is just as guilty as those her abused them. Actually she is guiltier because she could have stopped it but chose to hurt you for being the “Beauty” instead of the “Beast”.

You never give up and you never will, nothing but death could stop you from fighting to protect your children from suffering and abuse. They will not suffer the same fate as you did when you were a child.

The odds were not in your favor and even though you would win a few minor battles you never felt true victory or enjoyed the moment, because you knew that these “monsters” were going to keep coming at you.

In a momentary lapse of insanity, you finally realize that no matter what "legal" avenue you take there was no way you would ever win the war this way, it was time to change strategies.

That’s when you forget about the justice system that has failed you from day one and take matters into your own hands. If you were ready to die to protect your loved ones then you have an “immortal strength” inside of you that will conquer anything or anybody that gets in your way and you will be victorious.

By the way, if you haven’t figured it out by now this is actually a true.